cammyyy.

2009-12-11T13:25:00.001-08:00

not much to update. LOL
too tired.
lots of homework and assignments.
stressed with school.
can't WAIT till christmas break soo..
until then (:

kthnksbaii.

2009-11-23T15:04:00.000-08:00

Oh how I love the art in Toronto.

2009-11-22T09:28:00.000-08:00

"Miracles are God's Graffiti."
- me.

It came from the quote "Gray hair is God's graffiti, but it didn't sound right to me...so I changed it. LOL

2009-11-22T09:26:00.001-08:00

So I watched New Moon and I surprisingly loved it ahhaha. I like things way to easily. But yeah, I loooooved it. Taylor Lautner made is soo worth it.
The script was really... awkward though. It's like edward and bella aren't comfortable with one another ROFL. I could've hear a pin drop cos it was so awkward and silence. LOL.
The best part was the Volturi scene and the all the jacob scenes :D hehehe.
Can't wait for eclipse now. I think that will be pretty interesting. But most of all, Breaking Dawn will definitely be the best. The story line is great and it'll be intenseeee. And you get to see Jacob's perspective a lot LOL. lotsaaaa jaob scenes!

:)

2009-11-20T16:09:00.000-08:00

So this week was pretty hectic and busy. It went by like a breeze. NEW MOON IS OUT TODAY. I'm so excited. I'm going to see that with my girl tomorrow. It got bad ratings but the feedback from the fans were good. (Y)
I'm pretty tired nowadays. So much cra to deal with at school, so much homework, assignments. DECEMBER is like here SO SOON. Can't wait for Christmas! It's my faaaave season and holiday. Well maybe just holiday cos I also like summer.
--I lied, I like winter. I just hate how nasty it looks sometimes and the REALLY cold weather. maybe if it snowed and it looked all pretty outside with an OKAY temperature. not too chilly or too cold. I hate slush! That ruins the whole winter picture I have in mind.
I've been so like..BLEH @ school. I just don't care no more. whatever. I'm just going to focus. LIKEAAAA NEEEEERD 8)
anywho, just thought I'd update on my life.
toodles. (L)

2009-11-16T17:50:00.000-08:00

"Coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous."
-- Albert Einstein

So next time something big happens in your life; you get a job, you get a good mark...etc ; instead of saying "I must have been lucky. It's just a coincidence."
say this instead, "I'm so blessed."

yeeeup.
Thank you Jennessa for the awesome lesson!

other blog updated.

2009-11-11T14:49:00.000-08:00

As most of you know. My other blog is only for my poems that I write about life, God and whatnot.

updated.

Title: Two Brothers

2009-11-06T08:05:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0PNYJQrX36I

Starstrukk- 3OH!3 feat katy perry
I like this video. hahaha. omg @ 2:15, they're eating SUSHI rock climbing. BAHAHAH.

homeeee.

2009-11-05T11:51:00.000-08:00

SO tonight is going to be episode 8 of VAMPIRE DIARIES and GUESS WHAT?! I have the channel!! haha. CV @ 7pm I believe. although it's kinda fuzzy :3 so I kinda have to adjust the antennae LOL. GHET-TO! I'm doing art homework. and i really don't want to do it.
So, I stayed home today. felt kinda awful this morning. My throat hurt and my head was pounding and also i was sore all over my body. But it's all gone now :S LOL
tomorrow is my bio test on genetics with the punnet squares and stuff. this is my chance to bring my mark up! and trust me, you don't wanna know what my average in bio is -.- and MIDTERMS. are coming out next week. CHET ROI. I'm done. i don't think honor roll is possible for me. GRRR. stupid science brings down my mark. BUT, so far, I'm getting an 87 in art and with my last painting which I got 96 on, it will definitely bring my mark into the nineties! if I keep this up maybe my avergae will be in the eighties even with my low bio mark.
gottta start cranking on the studying.
I have to start reviewing lessons every night for bio for the next unit.
FML.
yours truly, ceedouble.

2009-11-04T14:27:00.003-08:00

omg. I swear I watched the whole movie of New Moon from all those trailers and preview clips of movies. LOL I try not to watch it but I can't resist. Looks so bomb. haha

UPDATE? :)

2009-11-04T13:56:00.000-08:00

So, I've started a new TV series. LOL and I surprisingly really like it. Vampire Diaries reminds me of Twilight in a way but a better twist to it. It's hard to predict...well I'm not a good predictor anyhow. haha. but yeah. I think the two guys are kinda attractive! KINDA. hahaha.
OMG, bio is killing me. I hate genetics so bad. I can't wait for the next unit LOL. and genentics is supposed to be like easy since you don't have to memorize. it's just like math. where you understand how to do it and you'll be fine. but I get confused. and my test is FRIDAY. AAAH. yeah I'm supposed to do my homework for bio right now BUT i'm kinda 'meh' about it. I regret taking bio now that I know i wanna go into music LOL. But the thing is. I'm scared of not taking any sciences because IF I change my mind about what I wanna do . I'm doomed. Cos I can't do anything else without sciences. But I hate science with my life , so I'm confused on what I should do. because KNOWING ME, I might change my mind -.- maybe I should just take it just to be on the safe side. but I don't want universities to be looking at my horrible sciences marks when they could be looking at a good mark for something else. All I know is that I'm taking math next year again. Calculus and advanced functions. cos I love math 8-)

anyway, so far. alot has happened and I just don't care about a lot of things. I'm just whatever at everything I do. I don't know how I can fix this. oh--of course God can help. but with my "I don't care" attitude, that's not gonna happen for a while -.-

2009-10-27T14:24:00.000-07:00

"You are my Camcam ,my only Camcam,you make me happpyyy when skies are gray. You'll never know dear,how much I love you. So please don't take my Camcam awaayyyyyy(8). =)"

- Bryanna Rivard.

CHANGESSSSS.

2009-10-17T17:42:00.000-07:00

OKAY, SOOOOOO I'M THE HAPPIEST PERSON IN THE WORLLLLLD. HAHAHA. COS NOW I DON'T HAVE TO LIKE...CARE ABOUT STUPID BIOLOGY AND ANY SORT OF SCIENCE COS I DROPPED THE WHOLE PHARMACY FUTURE. AND NOW I WANNA BE A MUSIC PROFESSOR.
I want to go into the music career. I decided today. and I'm so sure of it. I'm just soo happy hahaha.
and I feel like it's something i enjoy soooo therefore it's a good thing for me :) So i want to be a music professor like I said. and me and CHALIE are like excited ahhaha. my mom was like how we should open up our own little studio LOL.
so yeah just thought I'd tell all you bloggers that.
i can now drop all my sciences and focus on music. I ight change out of the visual arts program in my school into music/piano. WOOT.

erm...

2009-10-16T18:17:00.001-07:00

LOL i think I'm gonna write some more. except this time HAPPY THOUGHTS.
So, FUTURE. i know boring topic but whatever. LOL
I want to go to waterloo, for pharmacy. tehehe. wanna get outtt of here. can't stand being locked up in a house. LOL
i wanna like get out and do things I couldn't do. like.
PIERCINGS. LOL i want three more piercing. one more on each ear and one in the middle of my left ear. if my parents see me they will kill me but meh. forgive and forget LOL
hmm, I want to get into sports. my parents don't let me go nowhere. I wanna do tennis , badminton and volleyball. faaaaaave sports.
sighs, i got a lot of plans for myself.
if pharmacy doesn't work, it'll be nursing. which i kinda don't want to do no more cos if I can't take stress, --ahem, my last post-- then how can I deal with the stress that comes with the job.
So another is being a piano teacher. own my own little studio tehehe (A)
If I wanna get into pharmacy I gotta have an 85+ average. CHET. I can do it. but ... I'm dying in Biology. It's soooooo confusing. it's all memorizing but I honestly hate that. i love math, you understand it, you do it. period.
off topic but: my feet are COLD. and one of my hands. wait wait. actually, my left hand and foot are warm, and my right hand and foot are cold. WHAT IS THIS? like... cold on one side. LOL

okay , I'm done. Just wanted to update this thing. So all you bloggers can get updates on whats hapennin'!
I'll probably be back to update this in like .... 2 weeks. if anything it'll be like 3 sentences.

xo - cammyyyy.

rant.

2009-10-16T17:29:00.000-07:00

Dear blogspot,

I'm stressed. and tired of everybody. Some people aren't just who they used to be. Or I just found out the true them. and it's frustrating that I have to pretend to like them when deep down, they're just making me upset. people make me surprised everyday. and it's very. annoying. I hate being the one to pretend I'm friends with someone. It's always me. Why. I'm like..bipolar or something. I become good friends with them and then I get tired of them. I feel like sucha shitty friend. I want to be your friend, but try not to cling. and try not to surprise me with who you are. Don't fool me.
It just seems like I'm the worst friend ever. I don't mean it--ugh what's wrong with me. I start to get blunt and start avoiding them and then they get upset. and then I have to explain that I don't really want to have best friends. You can't trust me. I'm not a trustworthy person. Maybe I'll write that in my resume. LOL but honestly, I'm trustworthy, but as a friend, I might just ....grr can't explain. Not saying I'd betray you. But just don't try to get too close to me. I only have few close friends. I don't think I have best friends. For me, it's like once you move to a different school, you forget who you friends are. you just move on and make new friends. I always wanted a best friend that I've known all my life. I think that's what you call a best friend. Not someone you just met and after 3 months, they're your best friend.
I've been noticing that I've been so rude to people lately. I've like snapped on 2 grade 9's and a grade 10 this year. They're pissing me off. -.-
and i want to change that. I want to be a person where people will be like , "She's a great and awesome kind girl." I don't want to be the kind of person where I become friends with you. and you depend on me and the next thing you know, I'm gone, talking bluntly to you, and just annoyed.
I think I'm just too scared of being close with a friend? like I've had some pretty bad times.
EXAMPLE:
If you're best friends with a guy. They either get too close to you or just start to have feelings for you? NOT THAT that happened to me *cough cough*
Although I perfer having guy friends. I always wanted to have a best guy friend :)
Not that having a best girl friend is bad, but there are the disadvantages. But i won't go there.

OR

GIRLS, when you become close friend with them. Well they think they're your best friends or something and you don't seem to think that way and then they just like...annoy you after a while cos they always want to talk to you or they're just always around and depend on you so much, it's hard to just say "hey back off"

but anywho, my point is. Actually I don't have a point. LOL you tell me.

finally i get to update this thing.

2009-10-14T17:39:00.000-07:00

omgawd. no time to update this thing.
just so all you bloggers are updated, I'll just write something short right now since I have time. okay so, grade 11 is prettty craaaazy. so stressed and I'm getting eye bags for the FIRST TIME :( *tear* but yaw. so anthro is really interesting. it's actually my faaaaave class :) and art, is good cos we finally get to do a painting where we can put anything we like on it. tehehe. erm, math i love. i always love math. so far I'm getting an 85 though. :( I need to boost that up! and for bio, I'm not doing so well. I don't really like biology that much. science isn't my forte. I like chem better. cos it has a bit of math buahaha. >:)hmm. I basically covered all my classes. tehehe.

So I've been watching Glee. It's sucha cute TV show! I love it. I envy their singing, they sing so well. :(
anywho, I'm gonna go watch Glee on my iPOD now. hahaha. :) I'm such an addict. tehehe.

ch-ch-ch-cha-laaay.

2009-10-10T18:44:00.000-07:00

SOOOO, I just want to say that I'm PROUD OF MY BEST FRIEND CHAAALAAAY (;
i think he'll be soo successful in the future with his passion for music andandandand, i hope he does well in his audition for JYP and the SM or whatever it's called. HAHA. there should be an audition for sense of humour. haha. he's the funniest asian I know! CHALIEEE, you should start your own tv show! and be the host. like..star king! hahaha.
P.S. CHALIE , if you make it in , you'll hook me up with one of the hottttt celebs (; hahaha.
loveeee yaaaaaa budddd <3333

2009-09-14T13:51:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q58iQSHhZGg

new moon extended trailer @ the VMA's
EEP. SO EXCITED!

NJ!

2009-09-05T15:06:00.000-07:00

So i'm here in New Jersey. :) It's quite nice. the sales here are MAD GOOD. Like the mall was my heaaven. had every possible store I loved. and it had really good sales cos of labor Day. and the malls on Saturday closes at 9! DAYUM. LMAO.
anywho. just thought I'd update all you readers a bit.
I'll tell you about my trip more later.
toodles.

UPDATE.

2009-09-02T09:02:00.001-07:00

Finally got to update my other blog. Haven't been in the mood for writing so i wrote something.
"Eternal Perspective."

http://ceedotvee.blogspot.com/

YAY!

2009-09-01T15:55:00.000-07:00

kay so basically i just want to say that I'm happy with my courses :) they are put very nicely. all my grade 12 courses are obviously second semester and since i'm taking two arts, two sciences, two maths and two social sciences, it's split up perfectly. one of each for each semester.
YESSSSSSS. (Y)
i just hope my friends are in the same classes as me! :(

GLORIA BEING STUPID.

2009-08-31T18:36:00.000-07:00

' gloriatrann 〃 says:
*OMG WOW
*i feel so stupid !!!!!!
- camtuvu . says:
*what?????
*oh
*LOL
*nick ?
' gloriatrann 〃 says:
*okay so Nick texted me " go on msn i'm in the elevator"
*and i thought it was YOU that texted me !
*i was like WHAT THE HELL CAM TU ?!?!?!?!?!
- camtuvu . says:
*LMAO
*LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL
*HAHAHHAHHAHAHHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
*yes gloria
*im in the elevator
*LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL
*OMG
*IM DYING
*ROFL
*SUCHA GLORIA MOMENT
*and SOOOOO BLOG WORTHY
*new post!
*LOL
*OMGSSEJBHF
*i choked on my orange
' gloriatrann 〃 says:
*HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
*LMAOOOOOOOOOOOO
*:(
- camtuvu . says:
*LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL
' gloriatrann 〃 says:
*because it both start with a "C"
*i just glanced at it
*and im like WHAT THE @!(*#!(@*#@
*you're in a elevator
*?
- camtuvu . says:
*LMAO
*LOOOOOOL
' gloriatrann 〃 says:
*and you're telling me to go on msn?
*HUH !
*HAHAHAHAHAHA
- camtuvu . says:
*AHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
*YOU CLOWN
*full of jokes
*so funny
*LOL
' gloriatrann 〃 says:
*SHHHHADDDDDUUUUUUUUUUUP
*:(
- camtuvu . says:
*i love you rofl!
' gloriatrann 〃 says:
*LMFAOLMFAO
*BLOND MOMENT !
- camtuvu . says:
*hahahah i can't stop laughing
*"what the hell camtu!"
*that's like me saying.
*gloria, what are you wearing im in your closet
*LOOOOL
*no no no
*that;s like saying
' gloriatrann 〃 says:
*LMFAOLMFAOLMFAO !
- camtuvu . says:
*gloria you smell good. im in yor closet
*LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL
' gloriatrann 〃 says:
*HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
*OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
- camtuvu . says:
*HAHAHAHAHAHHA
*OR
*what detergent do you use, im in your closet
*okay im being stupid now
*i'll stop
*LOL

^ LMAO. too funny.
love you gee.

2009-08-31T14:24:00.000-07:00

OH GOD, I'm back to my twilight obsession. not that i wasn't obsessed with it but I wasn't crazy about it and like thinking about it all the time. But it's back again. I'm reading new moon for the second time. I never really was into it before cos edward left and I was like so sad, and parts with jacob was so boring i was getting impatient so I skipped like a lot of the description and went straight to the dialogues LOL.
but now that i know Taylor lautner is Jacob Black, i have more motivation and i can picture him as i read it. :)
I'm like so obsessed I just read Midnight Sun again--the draft. Edward's POV in Twilight.
sighs...

Life's a climb, but the view is great.

2009-08-30T17:51:00.000-07:00

"Life's a climb, but the view is great."

shh, yes I know it's from Hannah Montana. LOL but whatever. the movie was cute. haha. I watched it twice. once by myself and again with my mom. she liked it. she kept laughing and Hannah's stupidness!
Well I really liked that quote. It sounds ...I don't know. It's just like, true. You go through a lot in your life but in the end it's all worth it. It's kinda like what I learned at the Church picnic today.
Victor shared a short message. (Hi, Victor if you're reading this. LOL)
About have an eternal perspective and not think that, "everyday you're dying."
because you're not. You're living everyday. Because when you know God, you'll live forever and with him in heaven.
So the quote kind of reminded me of Victor's lesson. You go through ups and downs in life but in the end, the view is great. You're in heaven with God just chillin' and whatnot. haha. I'm not good and retelling and explaining things but this is the best I can without making it sounds soooo...emotional and deep. haha.
Anywho, I'm home while the youth group is at CNE :(.
my mom wouldn't let me go. sighs. she thinks i've been out too much. hahaha. how sad. cos I haven't been. LOL
she's like: we're gonna go out and have fun this weekend in New Jersey.
i'm like: but you said I go out too much. (this is me with attitude LOL)
mom: but this is different. it's with family.
me: well, the youth group is like family to me too. What's the difference.

she got soooooo mad. I swear I thought she was gonna give me a time out and like make me kneel in front of a wall and stand there for days.
BUUUUT whatever, glad I got that out.

I don't know why I'm telling you this. LMAO. but whatever, I guess I'm at home to share the lesson I learned today :)
Always think that everyday you're one day closer to God.

P.S. I like Hannah Montana. I don't care what people think. haha

"Pop it lock it , polka dot it. something somethign countrify it. Do the hoedown throwdown"

-LMAO i'm kidding,--imagine if I sang that, would you still be my friend? :D ahahahaha.

xoxo- cammy :)

2009-08-28T12:25:00.001-07:00

EEEEEEEEEEEP! I just watched it two more times and I got new symptoms. Chills and butterflies in my stomach...--oh and tingles in my toes :D

OKAY, I'M DONE...for now :)

EEP :)

2009-08-28T12:07:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OU61zxhPT1g

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG. this is the thing i was talking about. LOOOL. WATCH IT. he's so hot. EVERYTIME I WATCH THIS, I like DIEEEEEEE FROM HIS HOTNESS.

I'm too excited hahaha. why can't it be on OCTOBER 20th instead of NOV 20th. Oct 20th is on my birthday :( hahahha. EEEEEEP, okay, I'm gonna go and watch it again, and download it onto my iPOD. :D LOL

--I'm not crazy, I swear!

SPAZ about New Moon. LOL

2009-08-27T14:14:00.000-07:00

omgomgomg, okay so I was watching this interview with Taylor Lautner talking about his character and New Moon. and it showed clips from the movie. I swear, i got like goosebumps. I CANNOT WAIT TILL THE MOVIE COMES OUT. It seems waaay better than Twilight since the director changed. I just thought I'd spaz about that. hahaha. TRUST, when the time comes when it's like 10 days will New Moon hits the theatres, you'll be seeing a lot of spazzing haaha. JACOB LOOKED HOT. I think this part will be interesting without Edward in the movie, cos the part in the book I wanted to CRY when Edward left Bella. Parts with just her and Jacob were kind of slow and boring. hahah. but I won't be bored when watching the movie ;) Taylor Lautner is worth any of my time. hahaha. (:

New York, here I come.

2009-08-22T14:02:00.000-07:00

I will be going to New York tomorrrowwwww. :D

- Statue of Liberty

- Shop

-Walk around

-Take pictures

I'm excited! LOL

Anyway, thought I'd say that. LOLOL

Dunno what to post about these days.

Young Girl, don't cry. I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

2009-08-20T13:20:00.000-07:00

I've been listening to old old songs these days. Two songs I came across really stood out to me.
I turn to you and The Voice Within both by Christina Aguilera. Deep and meaningful lyrics. I love it :) LOL

-------------------------------

This song reminds me of God. Because it's so true. Whenever we're scared or going through something we feel that we can't go through alone, we can turn to God.

I Turn To you

When I'm lost in the rain
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way
When I'm scared
Losing ground
When my world is going crazy
You can turn it all around

And when I'm down you're there
Pushing me to the top
You're always there giving me all you've got

For a shield from the storm
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you yeah

Oh when I lose the will to win
I just reach for you
And I can reach the sky again
I can do anything
'Cause your love is so amazing
'Cause your love inspires me
And when I need a friend
You're always on my side
Giving me faith
That gets me through the night

For a shield from the storm
For a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
I turn to you yeah

Ohhh
For the arms to be my shelter
Through all the rain
For truth that will never change
For someone to lean on
For a heart I can rely on through anything
For that one who I can run to...

(Turn to you)
For a shield from the storm
For a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you

GO! It's your turn.

2009-08-15T16:56:00.000-07:00

The rally was very goood. I got to spend time with other people that I never really got to know. And most of all, I learned a lot. I went to a rally called: GO!. The Band Jezreel came along with Paul Vike to help us with the event. So this post will just be dedicated to help those who weren't able to make it ... for anyone hehe. I just hope this will help someone or even question themselves about their life. ANYWHOOOO here we go.
So today we learned about WHAT stops us from GO-ing and serving God and sharing the gospel. Paul Vike gave us ten main points that prevent us from serving God.
There are 10 roadblocks and each one goes with a verse from the bible that will help us destroy the roadblock. I'm not going to go into detail...

1. Apathy.
This basically means when you know about something and you don't care.
EXAMPLE: You know about a youth group meeting/fellowship and you just go "EH whatever. I'd rather watch a movie."
How to break this roadblock?
VERSE: 11 not lagging in diligence, fervent in spirit, serving the Lord;
ROMANS 12:11

2. Sin
This is of course a big one. We all sin. and that gets in the way of our serving the Lord.
VERSE: 11 Depart! Depart! Go out from there,
Touch no unclean thing;
Go out from the midst of her,
Be clean,
You who bear the vessels of the LORD.
Isaiah 52:11
We mustn't feel guilty when we sin. If we do it's like God died for us for nothing. Don't let sin bring you down and keep you from serving God.

3. Pride
Sometimes we won't share the godpel to our friends because we have too much pride.
dictionary.com defines pride as: a high or inordinate opinion of one's own dignity, importance, merit, or superiority, whether as cherished in the mind or as displayed in bearing, conduct, etc.
We feel that friends are more important. and we don't want them to think we're weird talking about God to them so we don't do anything. or share about God's love to them.
VERSE: 26 For whoever is ashamed of Me and My words, of him the Son of Man will be ashamed when He comes in His own glory, and in His Father’s, and of the holy angels.
Luke 9:26

4. Fear
We are afraid of serving God. We are afraid of sharing the gospel. Fear always has a way of keeping us from serving God.
VERSE: 7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7

5. Doubt
We doubt serving God. We're afraid of how things will turn out. EXMAPLE: Telling your friend about God. you're scared that they won't be saved and you doubt everything. Instead, we should trust that God will make a way. He will work with your friend and help her to beleive that God's love does exist.
VERSE: 5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
Proverbs 3:5

6. Deception
Satan tells us lies. "You're not good enough. or steal this or lie." soooo basically that gives us duobt from serving God. Can't really explain. LOL
VERSE:
John 8:31-33 (New King James Version)
The Truth Shall Make You Free
31 Then Jesus said to those Jews who believed Him, “If you abide in My word, you are My disciples indeed. 32 And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.”
33 They answered Him, “We are Abraham’s descendants, and have never been in bondage to anyone. How can You say, ‘You will be made free’?”
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2 Corinthians 4:4 (New King James Version)
4 whose minds the god of this age has blinded, who do not believe, lest the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God, should shine on them.

7. Past
^ well hopefully you guys can just tell by reading each point why these are roadblocks. Cos i can't wuite explain. it just makes sense in my head. LOL
SOOO, Whatever it may be that happened to us in the past. We can't use that to excuse ourselves from serving God. It was the past, and we should build our future. Your past cannot be in the way of anything.
VERSE:
Hebrews 12:15 (New King James Version)
15 looking carefully lest anyone fall short of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up cause trouble, and by this many become defiled;
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Philippians 3:13 (New King James Version)
13 Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead,

8. Money
Whether you want to go on a mission trip, go. If lack of money is the problem, learn to trust God. he will make a way.
VERSE:
Matthew 6:33 (New King James Version)
33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.
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Philippians 4:19 (New King James Version)
19 And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.

9. Busyness
Sometimes we're too busy that we block God out of our lives. Work, school, being with friends...etc. We need to set out time for God.
VERSE:
Luke 9:24-26 (New King James Version)
24 For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will save it. 25 For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and is himself destroyed or lost? 26 For whoever is ashamed of Me and My words, of him the Son of Man will be ashamed when He comes in His own glory, and in His Father’s, and of the holy angels.

LASTLY!

10. Inadequacy
DEFINITION (dictionary.com): An instance of being inadequate; a failing or lack.
So like, a lack of a quality or something that keeps us from serving God. We don't need to perfect. God will provide us anything; strength.
VERSE:
Joshua 1:9 (New King James Version)
9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”
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Philippians 4:13 (New King James Version)
13 I can do all things through Christ[a] who strengthens me.

RESULTS: (can't really remember...sorry LOL)

1. It shows that we are obedient
2. It puts feet on our faith
3. You will produce everlasting fruit
4. Empowered by the Holy Spirit.

^ DARN I FORGOT THE FOURTH POINT :(
If i remember i'll post it. or I'll ask someone. :D

ANYWHO. i hope this helped a bit.

xoxo camtuvu.

NEW SHOW!

2009-08-12T16:46:00.000-07:00

Okay, so I started watching another TV show called 90210. <- Yeah it took me awhile to memorize the title. HAHA. BUT YEAH. it's good so far. I thought it was like The Hills or Laguna beach but it's not. I like this better. hehe. and Ethan Ward is HOT in the show. HAHAHA.
Man, I haven't watched a single asian drama for SOO LONG. I think I'm sooo over them now. it's all about ONE TREE HILL, GREY'S, GOSSIP GIRL && now 90210 :D

SO YEAH. I'm so stoke for this weekend. There's the church rally whill will be soo much fun!!! There's gonna be a lot of people. And I'm gonna be able to meet new people and whatnot. It'll be lots of fun. HEHE.

SIGHS, i don't know what I shoudl do for next year. -.- Like... I'm already gonna struggle with my heavy courseload. I dont' know if I want to add another science. THEN THIS WOULD BE MY COURSES:
3 sciences (grade 11)
2 maths (one of them is grade 12)
2 arts (i have to -.-)
and 1 social science (anthro)

that would mean I'd have to take my other social science which is a grade 12...Human diversity or something.. but i honestly don't think I can handle 3 sciences! that's way too crazy. Goooood thing I took summer school for english. I should've taken physics too with my friends.. SIGHS.
TIME ARE HARD. LOL

frigg. if I take physics. I don't think I'll have to time for shows :( one tree hill...which premieres sept 14th. *sniff*

AAAAAAAAH, FML.

CEEVEE and GEETEE COLLABS

2009-08-10T14:29:00.000-07:00

JUST A LITTLE PREVIEW OF OUR SUMMER PROJECT.
'DON'T FORGET TO DO THE LIST'
FEATURING, GLORIATRAN & CAMTUVU

yours truly,
cammy.

2009-08-08T12:52:00.000-07:00

SOOO, today I went to eat sushi with GLORIAAA (:.
It was soooo filling. I can barely walk as fast as my mom, rofl. we both pigged out and we talked a lot about what's going on. It was pretty intense, i found out a lot of things i never knew. :) hehehe. no more secrets!
We had our stupid moments when the waiter--the same one everytime--kept going into our little room thingy ! HAHAH, we kept going into the wrong one with some weird orders. me and G just like... lookeed at him like....uh... and we burst out laughing. hahaha
and there was the random happy birthday song. the FOB version. HAPPEE BUH-DAY TUUU YUUUUU. ROFL. we died. LOL cos your know, fob is our language ;) what what ! LOL
and the times we talked about YOU KNOWWWW , we're so mean :) BUUUUT, we speak truth. hehehe. OH YEAH and we had two sushies left but we were so full, so we put it in tissure and under the table ROFLROFLOLMAO. Gloria took a picture. which was the ONLY ONE we took all night. hahaha

@GLORIA: we took no pictures :( SOOOO, I have no picture to put up on our blog. :'( LOL
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and yeah. so my day was good so far. and also, I bought four new shirts today :) and ....they're all the same style ROFL. like those tanks and they're flowy. i got a black, light pinkish purple, blue and hot pink one (A) LOL.

2009-08-06T17:14:00.000-07:00

OMGSH, I'M DONE ONE TREE HILL . I miss it sooo much :'( Now, I'm onto grey's anatomy season 2 now. I watched season 1 a while back with Vi (; haha.
i think i really changed through this summer. But i like it (Y)
One tree hill is a really good show. Like it may seem dirty with everyone sleeping with eachother LOL, but naw, there's a lot of things you can learn from it.
In season 4-6, it's all about change. Like, they all got what they dreamed for cos they worked hard for it.
Brooke became the designer she wanted to be. I think she's the strongest person in the show. She goes through so much. having no parents while she grew up. Relatioships were always screwed up. Yet she's so forgiving. When Peyton took Lucas, she forgave her. Like who can do that nowadays right? Like I said before about forgiveness and friends, of course you can't take that as an advantage, but i think everyone should be forgiving. And I admire Brooke for that. She took in Samantha and took care of her because Samantha didn't have a mother and Brooke was like a loving mother to her. I think, that's so great of her.
Nathan he went through a lot. And he learns self control. And he gets his dream in the end. after all he's been through. He couldn't play basketball anywmore cos of his accident, but that didn't stop him from playing. and he's strong for that. He was determined to make a comeback. so he practiced and practiced and in the end he got into the NBA, even with his condition.

&& well, those two people are my favorite ROFL. hahaha. so yeah. i mostly change with them. And well. Lucas and Peyton, i dunno. But Lucas is soo ... well he's alright. It seems that the two of them only lived for eachother. and Lucas was mostly so depressed LOL.
and Haley, weeeell, i like her she's cool, but I don't see a lot changing with her. She was stupid to go on tour and leave Nathan all emo. LOL
JAMIE IS SOO CUTE, omgsh. LOLOL that's all.
I wonder what will happen in season 7. Cos well, they all got what they wanted. all married or have a guy. maybe it's more of Jamie and Sawyer growing up and whatnot. hehehe.

Man, i friggin miss the show. LOL CAN'T WAIT TIL SEPTEMBER when it airs again. I'm probably gonna get so distracted from school. I watched season 1-6 during summer school till now. Oh wells, I came out with a decent mark (Y) LOL

anyway, i think that's good for now.
toodles.

2009-08-06T09:56:00.000-07:00

SOOOO, i decided to change my layout. It's nice non?
and hmm, the song better play. It's
Kate Voegele- Hallelujah. My new favorite song :)
Her voice is just so strong and deep, love it.
BUT ANYWHOOO, just wanted to say that.
xo-cammy.

2009-08-05T10:53:00.000-07:00

DAY ONE @ YMCA with GEETRAN:
WELL, It was fun. But it was stupid how you need some bank card for the membership. NO CASH ALLOWED. -.- OH WELLS, today was free :) hehehe.
oh man, it was so jokes today. Like, I've been to the gym before but not a really good one as the Y. It had a lot more stuff. LOL
the treadmill made me feel like I was floating after I got off. hahah. But it was fun times. :) There was this one embarassing time. you know those thingies where you pull or push down, so your arms get deezed? LOOL dunno what it's called but you can like...adjust the weight. WELL. i thought the lowest one would be on the bottom, like the makes sense right? like lowest->bottom. LOL goes together. THEREFORE. i put the key thing on the lowest, bottom-est one. LOL and i try it and it's sooo heavy. like i can't do it. im thinking, "WOW IM WEAK, i'm doing the lightest one and i can't even do it!" so i struggle. and some black man comes up to me and puts the key in on the top which is the lowest weight! WHO KNEW! LOLOLOLOL. im so nooooooooob. so embarassing. so i tried and i did it!!! :)
ahahhahaha, oh wells. me and Gloria tried to work the bycicle thingy, BUT we failed. LOL we didn't know how to turn it on. BUT the seat was too high , so i tried to adjust it but i coudn't do it. so some really old man adjusted it for me :D HAHA. he was so nice. but yeah....that just shows how NEW i am at this. LOL
and we got lost. we ALMOST WENT INTO THE MEN'S CHANGEROOM. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. we went onto like every floor trying to find the women's changeroom. && OMGSH, okay, when we were done and were about to leave, we wanted to wash our faces, and we tried to find it, and it's next to the showers and we see this old asian lady showering! like OPENLY. like.... QWKJNEKAWJNKJ. LMAO. scarred for life. hahahaha it was sooo JOKES. me and gloria were trying not to laugh. and we thought we wouldn't see her again when we found the sinks. BUT there were mirrors. sooo we saw in the reflection. GROSS HAHAHA.

but yeah, my parents are being asses about me giong to the Y. cos there's one in brampton, but i go to the one in sauga. BUT it's better, cos it's one bus there. whereas brampton i probably have to take like 3 busses. LOL
and plus, i like sauga :)and my mom is saying how she doesn't want me to bus around. BUT PUH LEASE, im sixteen..well in 2 ish months. LOL
and money? PFFFT, i got that. well. this sucks cos i'd spend like 150 ish this month..on bussing and membership. LOLOLOL. maaaaaad crazy. but whatevs. I just want to lose my belllllllly fat. LOL. my goal is to lose. 2-5 pounds. I weigh. 111 pounds. maybe more. but i dunno. ANYWHOOO, that's day one at the Y. :)
I'll get back to y'all.
TOODLES. <3

P.S - AND AND AND GLORIA:
"YOU SHOOO SHEKZIIII" (;

2009-08-01T17:20:00.000-07:00

THE UGLY TRUTH
SO yeah, I watched it tonight, and i must say, I thought that was one of the funniest chick flicks I ever seen. It was funny. haha Although it was predictable it did kind od taught me something. I've never felt so self conscious now. haha
But the movie IS true. The truth is ugly at times...THe truth CAN get ugly...

ANYWAY, the previews for movies were SO DUMB. movies are getting so weird these days. Or it's maybe cos they can't make trailers. HAHA. But yeah. There's this movie coming out called THE STEPFATHER. LOOKS COOL.I WANNA SEE IT. Although it reminds me of Disturbia but i love thrillers. haha :)
anyway. just thought I'd update all my readers about my day. :)

2009-07-31T20:42:00.001-07:00

SEASON 5 !!!I'm officially an addict. Can't stop watching.
I will get back to this and write how I'm liking this season because there's a lot I can say about it. CHANGE is one big theme to it.

2009-07-30T10:28:00.000-07:00

SOOOO, summer is done! WOOT. I got a 90% in my part 1 exam essay :) and I don't think i did so well on my part 2 exam today. LOL. But I'm happy with my 90.
I'm quite tired these days...now i can sleep in. thank god.
Can't wait for August. There's the rally, New Jersey and Rochester. lots of shopping. Need a job though furreal.
SUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMER doesn't feel like it cos of the whole RAINING thing. ugh. But thsi week will be nice and summery so , I 'm going to make the best of it. I'm going to this vietfest thingy with Judy and Bryanna. It'll be SO MUCH FUN :) Like three good friends just chiiillllan' LOL. but yeah.
ANYWAY. I'm going to celebrate and you know....watch one tree hill :) hahah.
i shall post later.

2009-07-28T11:46:00.000-07:00

FREAKING TWO MORE DAYS OF SUMMER SCHOOL!!

So yeah, basically, I can't wait till school's over. Then I can finally enjoy my summer. I really want to go to Wondergirl's concert!!! They're coming August 31 and to CANADA. I can't miss it. I wouldn't for the world!! It'd be funny if Big Bang came. cos if i wasn't allowed to go, I'd honestly kill myself HAHAHA.

Anywho. My friend Xenia in summer school, got chopped like 2 times. haha funny. cos one was in the hallway and the other time in the library. You knoooow, this maybe like rude of me the judge, but I find that guys who CHOP like..with the pick up lines and like whatnot and want to you be your "man" the guys that won't take you seriously if you're dating them. Am I right? Or ... I dunno. Why not say "hi" and make conversation. Not like... "Oh Is that a mirror in your pants? Cos I see myself in them" Yeah. haha. that's creepy.
But yeah, the gus that take thei time to get to know you, they're swwwweeet. hehe.
ANYWHOOOOOO. I just had to say that since today was creepy with those guys talking to my friend haha.
I'm quite tired. I have my first part of exam tomorrroowww. -.- literary essay. (N) and thenn my part 2 on thursday, which is multiple choice and short answers on the GREAT GATSBY. that book is SOOOOOOOO FRIGGIN boring. trust.
I did my presentation today. and hmm.. It went well. I stuttered a little but overall, I didn't pause a lot to think. although every time I make eye contact, the teacher would be writing something. -.- UGH. So I'm prolli gonna get a low mark for eye contact.
anyway, back to my ONE TREE HILL obsession.
yes yes, I'll study in a bit.
laterrrr. <3

2009-07-21T15:39:00.000-07:00

FRIENDS? -- Part 1.

Well, there are soooooo many ways to define what a friend should be like. Because it really all depends on how you are and what kind of friends you’re looking for. It also kind of depends on how easily sensitive you are. Because if a friend lies to you, I’m sure you’d get mad. But friends should be forgiving too. Of course there’s an extent, boundaries, limits whatever. What if you lie to them, so they won’t get hurt. And I’m not talking about how they look, or how nice they look in those jeans or this shirt. It’s hard for me to explain and for some reason, It’s hard for me to find friends that I can really rely on and will understand me. It’s not that I have expectations n a friend. You’re who you are. But if you were my friend, you’d be forgiving, understanding, trustworthy and caring. That’s ALL I need. A friend that will stop me from being an idiot and doing something stupid. But also encouraging me to take risks and make my life more fun. If that makes sense? LOL. That’s why I tend to be so … scared. I’m scared to lose friends. Because a lot of them don’t understand me.

EXAMPLE (I know it’s from One Tree Hill but bear with me. The show inspired me to write this.) BROOKE AND PEYTON. They go through a lot. You see, Brooke is a slut, yet Peyton is still her friend and she doesn’t persuades her to be one or persuade her NOT to. Does this even make sense? I’m trying to say that regardless …darn. NVM can’t explain LOL. AND ALSO. Like when Brooke went out with Lucas and Lucas cheated on her with Peyton. Brooke was mad, yes, but they went back to being friends. “Hoes over Bros” I quote Brooke. :P and yeah. Even with such a history, they’re such good friends. Because they understand each other and they don’t let anything get in their way of being good friends.

Well you know, I know it’s just a TV show but I’m sure there are friends that are like that. And I know there’s limits when being friends . Like you can’t take forgiveness as an advantage. But people do make mistakes. Friends have to accept that, and move on.

2009-07-21T15:13:00.000-07:00

DO I SMELL CHANGE?? I THINK SO!

So yeah, I think this post will be dedicated to my thoughts on how church is. I see change in this church and I know it will be great. So we have renovated the church so far. There’s a lounge and it’s all clean. The lounge is seperated with a curtain full of pictures. Man, things have changed from when we were little. We used to sing on stage singing vietnamese songs and making hand movements. haha. Who knew I'd actualy be on the praise team leading everyone into worship? Trust me, I was surprised myself. I'm scared though. The keyboard is on stage and there are SPEAKERS too. Yikes. I’m going to have to practice practice practice because my voice will REALLY be out there. But I’m so self conscious. Like…I don’t even know how my voice sounds like. I can barely hear myself. (GOAL: GET MONITOR.) and I can’t even hear myself play on the piano. What if I screw up? Why can’t I play better? Why can’t I sing well? Why can’t I get everyone to like raise their hands and feel the passion you’re supposed to feel.
I can’t let my life be ruled by all these What If’s. All I know is that with God, I can do anything. He’s my strength and I’ll make it.

2009-07-21T15:03:00.000-07:00

FEARS??? well half the post is about my fears. The other half is me talking about Tree Hill and lecturing ? haha

Ugh, I don’t understand this whole ISU crap. Because the more I look at it, it’s kind of like an essay. We’re writing about a theme and proving it to be true. And so I use quotes and the same stuff used in an essay. I thought this would be easy. And I guess it is.
SO I’m a nerd and I made a schedule for what I should do each day to get this ISU done. Today I’m writing about historical time period and themes. So I got started on themes and so far ONE THEME takes up a page. FML. I’m really tired, but maybe that’s cos I’ve been watching waaay too much One Tree Hill haha. :P But it’s getting so good! Haley left Nathan. That SLUT left him for some unattractive music dude, Chris. Sighs. And poor Nathan is emotionally tearing apart. HAHAH the funny things he did. He painted his apartment…well like a spot of the wall, PINK . cos Haley hates pink. LMAO and he painted over her face and put a picture of a clown over it because clowns creep Haley out. HAHAHA. Oh man. I wanted to die. LOL. He’s such a joker. LOLOL. And the more I watch this, I’m getting bored with Peyton. I mean I liked her before because well. She was the GOOD girl and Brooke was like a slut who slept with every guy she knew. But now I’m starting to like Brooke. She actually changes a lot in the seasons. You start to see her good side and it outshines her bad side . If I was a bad girl, I’d want people to see me for my good intentions and not my bad ones. Wouldn’t you ???? BUT YEAH, anywhooodly, enough about Tree Hill. Too obsessed haha. Keep talking about it. But yeah. Speaking of clowns. They creepy me out too. Like the smiles and makeup and try to make you laugh with joy until tears. Well I’d just get to the tears and not the joy. Cos I’d be HELLA scared. And yeah , I’m scared of rodents cos their tails are narsteh. SOME DISHSUGHTINGZZ. LOL and I hate bugs. Like…any. Not ants though but I hate those creepy like long legs or ones with like HUNDREDS OF LEGS. HOLAY. I hate bees too. Scared of them. I run from them I can’t stand still YOU CRAZY?!?! Anyway. I’m supposed to be doing my stupid ISU right now…I think I should do that now. I think this post is just an excuse to not do my homework.
Anyways PEACE.

2009-07-20T11:38:00.000-07:00

RAWR.

Just thought this layout kinda stands out and if fun. Which shows that my summmer has been great. Loving this year. So many things happening and I'm starting to see change in my life. ANYWHO, the layouts kinda reminds me of candy haha.

2009-07-20T11:15:00.000-07:00

NEW OBSESSION:
ONE TREE HILL

James Lafferty, is just too hot. Love him. And I think i might be getting white washed. but not to the MAX. So don't get all shocked. I dunno, I'm dressing differently, the people I'm interested in now is different, I'm interested in other types of music WITH the same music I WAS in interested in still in mind. But yeah, I'm sure people might judge me for my "change" but honestly, whatever. I DON'T CARE. say what you want. But I like this change, because I’m sure it’s not happening for nothing. It’s for the better.

Oh, Summer Rain. Gotta Love It.

2009-07-15T18:08:00.000-07:00

Pitter patter on my head
The rain hits me hard like bullets
The thunder sounded like a bowling ball
Crashing through every single pin
It’s time to pull out the umbrellas
The water hits the tip of my boots, splashing dirt onto it
The smell of the rain disgusts me
Just like all the worms I leap over whenever they cross my path
The weather doesn’t make me any happier
In fact, it drains all my emotions
It gives me time to reflect and imagine
The things I want to do and where I want to be
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath
I sucked in the smell of barbeque fresh off the grill
And I could hear the waves of the ocean
I could feel the warm summer breeze against me
The beautiful smell of fresh cut grass
Boosts up my energy
The feeling of sand squished between my toes
Brings me back to the summer days
Long walks on the beach
Late nights, being with friends watching a movie
Summer is where I want to be
And that’s where I feel like I am right now
I opened my eyes and realized that it’s the middle of July
It’s summer and it has rained from May till now
Things aren’t the way they used to be
Summer days are covered with dark clouds that release buckets of water
The world really does go through drastic changes, I thought
But with my imagination, it doesn’t have to
A pinch of faith and belief
I can find myself reliving the past

la la la.

2009-07-07T14:00:00.000-07:00

FREEDOM!!

PFFFFFT, are you joking? I'm in summer school. I'll get like the littlest amount of freedom this summer.
Sighs. My English teacher teaches like we're in grade 2 .. LITERALLY. silent reading for 30 minutes...WTHELL?! I haven't done that since grade 3. HAHA. and this is UNIVERSIY LEVEL ENGLISH. hahaha
SO AWKWARDDDDD. and yeah, there's only two asian (inc. me) and one black in my class. and the rest are brown. LOOOL and there's 35 people in my class. DO THE MATH.
But I think summer school is worth it (Y). even though the teacher s slack. oh well! :) good for me I guess. A's :D
and yeeah. i just hate waing up early. IM SO TIRED. :(
anywhooodly, I was just catching up on my blog.
tooodles
caaaaammmmyyyy

2009-06-25T10:02:00.000-07:00

SUMMER IS HERE.

Well...maybe not entirely. Apparently it's HAILING at the end of JUNE. WTHECK?!
Hopefully we'll get more of a kick of summer this weekend. I'm going to camp with my family ..plus with Trang maybe ? 8D
and next week, summer school begins. woopee. -.- kinda NOT looking forward to that but im determined to fast track. I'm taking english.. so my year will be less stressful although it might not. I'm taking two social sciences..one is grade 12. I'm also taking two maths.. one grade 12 , two arts and two sciences >< Oh well. I know I have to study even harder in grade 11.
and so yeah. Next week. i might be going to the beach with Soo. :D Can't wait! It'll give us a lot more time to catch up! I miss her oh so much!
Sighs...and I will also be going to New Jersey to meet some family in august. so more shopping! (Y)
It will be a great but hectic summer. I only get little time for myself and the family. since summer school is a huge deal.
8:30 - 1:30 . dddamn. 5 hours of english ... right? haha joke.
SOOOO. I believe this is the best year ever. :D
Maybe I'll write it about why later .
- Toodles.
yours truly,
cammy.

2009-06-24T07:23:00.000-07:00

This is dedicated to my lovely sister, who has always been there for me. :)
TRANGALANG.
She's always been there for me whenever I needed help.
I have like. friends who honestly will never understand me...but Trang always did. because we are very alike in so many ways.
We're crazy, sensitive, wild, korean loving (I think LOLOL) sister-like friends.
She always makes my day.

I hope God will work through her life and teach her new things. Open her eyes to see God's love for her and know that he is always there for her. (I'm pretty sure she knows that already hehe)
I can see her changing spiritually and I'm really proud of her. :)
TRANGIEEE, LAVV YAAA. <3
When times get hard, you know who to lean on!
AJAJA FIGHTING! keke :3

2009-06-24T07:20:00.000-07:00

Still Fresh In My Mind.
Hillsong United Concert 2009
June 6th
Best Night of my LIFE.

2009-06-24T07:16:00.000-07:00

Life is like a box of chocolate...

Okay...maybe not chocolates. maybe even cupcakes ? :D
Always full of yummy sweet surprises.
Just accept it!!!

The little things--i lied. the big things that piss me off.

2009-06-24T07:15:00.001-07:00

The little things--i lied. the big things that piss me off.

1. I am sensitive.
2. I offend a lot of people, because of things I say. But i don't mean to. It's just my words kinda get twisted into that sense.
3. I'm emotional. Like...when the atmosphere is, I am too.
4. This is kind of hypocritical, but I get put down easily. I don't say so though.
5. I hate it when people touch me.
6. My legs, face, hair, everything. IT'S IRRITATING. and keep your hands to yourself!
7. I don't like it when people act like someone they're not. Like be yourself. -.-
8. I hate misconceptions. I can't put up with fights.
9. I get soo hurt, when I get into fights when my gooood friends. I hate it. I don't know what to do. I just start tearing or whatever. I get angry. all the negative emotions put together.
10. I will rate my friendship with you and how much you mean to me by how much I mean to you. And this, I just figured this out like a while ago. Usually, I'm just someone's friend but I realize later that they're not worth being my friend if they treat me like I'm not worth anything to them. Does that make sense?
11. I've been hurt a lot. I just don't show it.
12. You know what? I don't care no more.
13. I thought friends were supposed to be forgiving. Forgiving means no grudges & no bringing up past fights.
14. Does everybody toy with me! Gosh, That's the way I feel about myself right now.
15. I love my life though. Don't get the wrong impression that this is me being emo or something. I'M NOT. I'm juuuuust saying.
16. I only love the world because God first loved us.
17. Now...friends aren't worth a lot to me. Family is. family friends...church friends...THEY ARE EVERYTHING to me. Friends can only be friends with you for so long.
18. After High School, I will see who my true friends are. And I have a good idea.
19. I respect others opinions...only if you respect mines.
20. Don't use me or test me.
21. You're gone if you use me.
22. Leave God to do the testing.
23. What offends me the most is when they judge my religion. or stereotype.
24. Just because I'm Christian, doesn't mean I'm frickin perfect. or that I'm supposed to be SUCHA good friend that you can use me and I'll forgive. NO i'm just like all of you.
25. I sometimes feel lonely. Sometimes I don't... LOL
26. I don't like to be the centre of the attention. I don't want to attract attention. I really don't.
27. Just because I'm telling you my problems doesn't mean I want attention. It's because I trust you and need help. But now I'm not so sure who i can tell.
28. I try my best to be someone you can trust.
29. I hate people who disrespect others. Only cos I've seen it happen to people and it's not a pretty sight.
30. I think I know who my true friends are.
31. You're not my parents...but that doesn't mean you can't protect me and tell me what not to do because you care about me. Just don't control me.
32. My life has been better this year. I've changed spiritually.
33. I'm a forgiving person because I understand ... no because God forgave us. I guess some people wouldn't understand.

P.S this is NOT supposed to offend anyone.
P.S.S this is NOT suposed to pinpoint anyone.
This is just my feelings.
If you've got some misunderstanding, well ask me. But if this makes you angry with me. I'm sorry. I'm not going to do anything about it.

No worry...

2009-06-24T07:09:00.000-07:00

No worry...

So Monday, I went to Buffalo to go shopping with my friend's family. It was really fun. Things weren't as cheap as you would imagine though. Well they were and I coulod've bought what I liked but ... I had to control myself. haha.
Sighs...man things have been hard lately. And I feel i can't do anything about it. -.-
Friends seem to be leaving, one by one. But I should never let those things bring me down right. I should always look forward and see the beauty in the world and not worry. If only it were that easy.

My summer is a bit blah now. No more working at my mom's place with Vi. It was fun i must say. BENJAMIN--ROFL VI.
but yeaaaaah. I have a lot of time on my hands, I just need to use it.

MY SUMMER GOALS:
- WORK OUT EVERYDAY
- FINISH PIANO THEORY
- DO WELL IN SUMMER SCHOOL
- BUY MORE CLOTHES
- JOB?
- MAKE MONEY

usually I never follow them, but this summer using the time I have...it will happen.
hopefully.

-CEEVEE.

So Little Time...

2009-06-08T15:54:00.000-07:00

Hmmm... omgawsh, I'm so tired. Too many things to be stressing about.
There's exams... gotta study study study. and then there's summer school. I'm worried God will drift away. Gotta stay balanced with God and other things!
ANYWAY, today went pretty well. I did my history presentation and a lot of people laughed LOL cos yeah it was pretty funny but I'm scared I didn't cover a lot of information. Or maybe it was too much information and I didn't get to the point. Everyone else's was like...good but they like didn't have a paper in front of them..and I did. LOL i read off the paper Not my fault my dialogue was long!
Hmmm...Toomorrow is the starting of in class exams. WOOPEE. -.- Food and Nutrition class is the ONLY class that's like...test test test LOL. and omgsh. i just remembered I have to do my art exam. AKJWKAJWAKJ GAHHH. Kill me.
Anyways... I'm trying to update this every now and then. But I'm just going to write small passages like so.
Toodles.

oh man. crunch time and a half.

2009-06-05T14:20:00.001-07:00

HOOOOMGS, time for exams. no time to update this. I'm too lazy and i have to study study study study KWJRAKWJNAKWJF.
will update one day.
k thanks.
bye :)

2009-05-29T15:00:00.001-07:00

Sighs...So I made a new blog. It's especially dedicated for my poems and writings. All for God.
Here is the link : http://ceedotvee.blogspot.com/
I really want this blog to save someone one day. That would be the best thing in my life.
Saving someone using indirect words.
Saving someone by my deepest feelings and writing.

Today was a pretty good day. This week went by quite slow for me. I really want another long weekend. I haven't updated this blog in so long. Been so busy with schoolwork and presentations.
Now I have to do my History Artefact. -_- I pray to God, that I will do well. I need the strength and God will be it :D So I'm confident !

Man, tonight I will be going to cell (youth group) and continuing our Destiny's Series.
I'm pretty excited cos so far, my gift is "People" and that ties in with what I want to do in the future. Nurse. :)
Maybe God is calling me. I can feel him opening the door for me to walk through.

My english presentation today went well. My ISP essay also. 4 and 4- ! I'm so happy ! and those are worth 15% of my final mark ! or was it 20? im not sure
sighs...
I guess this is all for now. I shall update later!

....

2009-05-18T08:46:00.000-07:00

I thought the layout was so cute. LOL
Anywho, I am reading .....uh more like cheating....To Kill a Mockingbird. I sparked notes it and it was very very very useful.
I haven't even started reading the book and my first half test is tomorrow. sighs. I'm not into reading as I once was.

-sighs-

2009-04-28T13:24:00.000-07:00

No weeping,
No hurt or pain,
No sick or lame,
You hold me now

I really like this song. It really does show how God is there for you at all times. The piano in the background is just beautiful also. But anyways, my day today wasn't so great. The rain just made it worse. It looked to gross outside. This week is actually going quite slowly...it's the same thing over and over again. I just want each day to be something I look forward to. I look forward to Sundays though. I think that's why my week goes by quickly, cos I working hard towards the day I look forward to...does that make sense ? LOL
-sighs- the wind is so strong today...not even funny. I think I'm just going to make this post short and sweet. Not a lot happened today. I'm gonna update my ABOUT ME section and put in some of my goals.

-camtuvu.

the four one one.

2009-04-27T13:31:00.000-07:00

A LITTLE ABOUT ME.
Well. to start off I'm sensitive that's one thing. If you say something hurtful to me, I'll probably go into an emo stage. but I don't get easily offended. I'm emotional, only when the time is. But if it's a moment where a lot of people are crying, most likely I'll feel their hurt and cry too. I like to laugh...alot! My friends are crazy, they think when I'm around a guy I laugh alot . but really. I laugh alot all the time. :P I think I'm dependant.I'm not an independant person. I can't do things myself. I depend on my parents (only cos they're so damn strict. LOL) But I rely on people a lot. Maybe it's cos I'm scared that I might fail alone or something. But I like to be around people. People person, you can say. :P I'm pretty picky. especially with movies. OMG, with korean dramas. I take FOREVER to choose one. And if the cover page or the title doesn't seem appealing to me--weather it's a popular drama or not--I skip it. LMAO, yeah that's just the way I am. And the beginning of the movie, has to be good, it has to draw me in or it's--NEXT ON THE LIST! >:) One important fact about me, is that I love love love love LOVE music. I can't live without it. I like almost any music, except for rock and country. I like korean music, I think the way they sing is so soothing. Although I have no idea what the heck they're saying, the music just drifts me away, you know? Hmm..I like classical music which ties along with korean music because the background music for korean songs are almost classical, with the piano and violin. I think those two instruments are my favorite to listen to. I can't play the violin, but I've been playing piano almost all my life. BUT, i still haven't mastered it yet :P haha. sighs. I go to Mayfield Secondary School for visual arts. Yeah i guess you can say I draw good. but there's some crazy artists in my school ! I can't beat them :P haha. hmm. i think that's it? -- OU OU, one more important thing. I believe there's a God. And I strongly believe in Him. He's just awesome :) He loves me more than anybody and is always there for me. :DDD ANYWHOO, I think that's all about me. If anything, I'll add it :)